Forever trapped to wear one mask
for the day and another for the night.
Feeling like my life is a non-stop bullfight.
Lost in the sight of my own self,
I'm caught between putting on
a smile and saying, "I'm fine."
Meanwhile, inside I'm falling
faster than sand in a timer,
desperately wanting to scream,
"I don't want to be confined anymore!"
Traveling within the walls of my mind,
I slide ever so slowly between my night-
mares and reality. Sometimes not knowing
which is which is confusing.
These feelings keep me from being able
to determine whether I am angry or batty,
so I come off to others as a bully.
There are days on end that I will pull
all nighters or wake up every two hours
at a time. I would hide myself from the
world as if I had committed a crime.
Living with PTSD and Bi-polar disorder
leaves you feeling like a high functioning
mentally challenged ticking time bomb.
One that can crumble in a second like
With help, love, and a good support system,
we can blend into society and you would
To get respect, you have to give it.
You must remember, you never know
what a person has been through.
The very freedom we all have, is because
of those who have fought for this country.
Don't be a hinder but a helper.